right...i'm back.

its decided. i can't live like this anymore. i thought i could but i just can't so i need to do something about it.

i'm all the way back up to 126 lbs now which is just ridiculous. by next thursday i will be down to 120 lbs and if i'm not i will fast for 3 days on nothing but water. i have to be harsh with myself otherwise i find excuses and then feel shit about myself because i haven't acheived my goal.

it would really help if theres anyone who i could talk to and just keep my motivation up. anyone in england btw??
xx think thin xx

just posting to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

i dont know whats wrong with me!
every time im upset, i eat LOADS...today ive eaten about 1300 calories! it so digusting!!!
my legs are like tree trunks and my ribs dont show so much anymore!
my crazy hairdresser is cutting my hair tomorrow and shes gonna say something like "oh your looking 'healthier'"
I HATE THAT WORD!!!
i know ive put on weight but im too scared to weigh myself!
now ive got tonsilitis and i get really hungry even though it hurts like hell to eat!
can someone give me some thinspiration or tips on how not to binge when im upset PLEASE!!!
xx

hi! sorry about posting twice today but i just got some scary news!
my weighing session has just been moved forward to tomorrow!!!
HAS ANYONE GOT ANY IDEAS OF WHAT TO USE TO MAKE ME WEIGH MORE?? I NEED TO WEIGH LIKE 3/4 POUNDS MORE???
PLEEEEEAAAASE HELP!!!!!!!!
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JUST POSTING TO SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 U, HAPPY BDAY 2 U, HAPPY BDAY 2 UUUU, HAPPY BDAY 2 U!!
HAVE LOADS OF FUN N TRY NOT 2 WORRY ABOUT FOOD TOO MUCH!

Omg...i've finally decided to get to 120 pounds for the ski trip and i HATE IT!!
Also, my boyfriend has been asking around his school to see if anyone knows if i have an ED! now the whole fucking school knows about it!
lots of people have just said "shes naturally like that" but i dont know if he believes them! The weird thing is...i always eat in front of him because i don't want him to know anything about it!!!
I can't wait until after the ski trip when i can start losing weight again!
xxx

Hey i've just joined this live journal thing
I've been reading all your comments for like a week and i finally decided to join up - it looks quite helpful and fun
I'vehad an 'EDNOS' for 2 years and my parents are keeping a closer eye on me than EVER before!!! They say if I don't get to 120 pounds before feburary, I can't go skiing with my friends. This is blatently no going to happen because its too scary but i really really want to go skiing! has anyone got any ideas??
Also, could anyone tell me any good tricks to skip meals that i'm made to sit down and eat in front of my parents??

I guess i should put my current stats because everyone else seems to...
height: 5, 7
c.w: 113
h.w: 130
l.w: 110

By the way, does anyone live in england on here or do you all live in america?
If anyone does live in england, please contact me!